I’m not sure if there’s any help out there for a girl like me; If sex addiction is truly a health addiction… What I do know is, this can’t be normal and my sexual lifestyle is completely out of my control.
Here’s my story…
I am a 25-year-old lady, living in Lagos (A South-Western part of Nigeria), I got introduced to sex relatively early. At the age of 6, I already had my first kiss. By the time I was 10, I was very aware of what sex what and although, I haven’t had an actual penis in me yet, I have done a few of the ‘wining and grinding’ with a few male friends. So when I clocked 15, and had an actual opportunity to do the real thing, I was highly curious and definitely interested.
He was an employee of my dad’s and he has been giving me ‘the eye’ since he started working for us. I should state here that for some reason, I was never attracted to my fellow school mates, even though those masturbating-freaks will give anything to stick their d*cks in a hole. So you can imagine my excitement when I realize that this was my opportunity to have my first ever sexual experience with an older man.
It was a warm, quiet Friday. My sisters were in school, my folks were already out doing whatever it was they did for a living. I was home-alone because my school was on Mid-term-break. It was 10:00 am, I hadn’t had my bath yet so I was still dress in the sleeveless shirt and short shorts I slept in. I came over to pick up something my dad forgot at home. I was on the couch, flipping through the channels and trying to figure out what watch on TV. I didn’t realize he was in a corner of the living-room, intently watching me. When I looked up and our eyes met, I gave him an uneasy smile which he returned with one of his own. He came over to sit by me.
After a few silent, awkward moment, he ran his arm up my leg. I felt desire like I’ve never felt before. Soon, his hands was in my lady parts, his lips on mine and my hands around him.
While it wasn’t exactly a pleasant first-time experience, I knew for a fact that something in me has changed. I just never knew how much.
The Employee and I hooked up a few more times after that. The sex got better and I was finding it extremely intoxicating. Then he stopped working for my dad and that was the last time I heard from him.
By the time I turned 17, my hormones were all over the place. I could not go a 3 days without a d*ck or fingers in me. I got it whenever I could get it. I had a couple of relationship end due to my incessant need for sex. So in my 3rd relationship, I started having my fun on the side. (Less pressure on him, I thought).
Now I’m 25, thinking about one day settling down and I just know my way of life would be a problem. I mean, there’s gonna be a huge difference between hiding your extra men from a boyfriend and hiding them from a partner you actually live with.
Don’t get me wrong, I have tried getting over my addiction. I have gone a whole 2 weeks without sex and it was excruciating so I know I’d never do that again. I am presently in love with a man who knows nothing about my addiction, my numerous sex toys and of course, the other men. In these part of the world, I doubt there are any shrinks that could help with my ‘situation’ so I’m basically stuck right now.
Any advice, tips, references to a good shrink would be highly appreciated. And don’t go judging my lifestyle (because I’m sure you might want to), I’ve heard it all.
Thanks in advance.
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